I almost died today.
Not one but TWO cars making a left at the intersection didn’t see me walking across the street in the crosswalk.
The first one turned RIGHT in front of me, cutting me off, and the second saw me right in time before coming at me from my side.
Interestingly enough I laughed … and said “What the heck is going on?!”
And my immediate next thought was “Shit! I almost died. SO … what am I waiting for? What am I worrying about?”
Really, truly, what are we waiting for? We could die at any moment … and I don’t say this in a morbid way, but in a realistic way that brings liberation.
I still got a lot of life to live and a lot that I want to experience on this planet. If I died tomorrow I won’t have regrets, however I may be a little bummed out that I never danced Burlesque on stage, or wrote a book, or took that singing class.
I don’t want to live a life where I am stressed and worried and thinking I’m not good enough or the time will never be right.
I thought about the decisions I postpone or relationships that I hang on to and all of a sudden things got put into an even sharper perspective.
I want to live like a little kid who loves herself so much that she lets herself play and have fun and laugh. Who doesn’t put up with anything less than she deserves (or makes her feel good).
I want to love so much that my heart is humongous as a result.
I want to release anything that holds me back from joy, fulfillment, pleasure, play, and passion.
AND I want to learn as much as I can about being a human on this planet while I am alive … I mean, that is the path this time around, so may as well make the most of it.
Which means you can learn your lesson from situations/relationships and walk away if they are not the relationship of your dreams – reciprocal, loving, healthy and amazing in every way.
With all that, I am vowing the following:
- No more filtering
- No more “the time isn’t right”
- No more feeling I’m not good enough
- No more comparing myself to others
I LOVE YOU and I want you to live while you are alive as well.